How Could I Leave Her ?

Cuddles with Piglett (not Mummy)

So I survived my 1st day back at work and couldn’t have asked for a nicer return with lots of hugs from my colleagues & a huge buffet lunch in my honour . It was a very long day as I was up at 6am to feed the kids , dress them , drop Harry at Morning Club for 7.45 and Charley to nursery for 8am, then get to the motorway and drive for 1.30hr to my office in Liverpool.Charley has been poorly for a few days with a cold and very weepy. I took her to the doctors on Monday but got told she just needs rest & sleep.The 1.30hr drive was the perfect amount of time to wind myself up about what an awful mother I was for leaving my poorly child and that I am basically going to burn in Hell.But what are my choices ? 
1.Not return to work and struggle on my hubby’s wage ?

2.Call in sick on my 1st day and look very unprofessional ?

3.Return to work and learn the fine art of turning your back on your crying child and walking out the door ?

Option 3 may sound rather harsh but that’s what I had to do yesterday.Turn my back,walk out the door quickly & try to stop the tears rolling down my perfectly polished face. Last night I arrived home at 7.15 , 20 minutes after Charley had gone to bed so I didn’t even get the chance to kiss her goodnight.This morning she woke up grumpy and didn’t want to be put down but I had to get me & Harry dressed so had to leave her sobbing while I did this. I know this will get better and she will recover from her cold and I will get into the swing of things in the working world again but as i sit on the train travelling today to my posh Manchester office all I want to do is be cuddling my poorly baby and making it all better 😢😢😢

 

 

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  1. September 24, 2016 / 9:30 am

    Oh god – I sympathise completely . For years my son cried at Creche drop off. The only thing that kept me going was knowing he was fine with any seconds. And leaving quickly is really the best for everyone. My daughter runs into Creche happy as Larry -all depends on the child I guess. Sympathy to you tho – it’s tough #fortheloveofblog

  2. September 24, 2016 / 7:42 pm

    Aww! Big hugs! Not a bad mummy at all! I went back to work 2 weeks ago and cried on my second day after it had hit me what was going on! Hope your little one is feeling lots better really soon!! Xxx #fortheloveofBLOG

  3. Nige
    September 25, 2016 / 12:43 pm

    Aww very tough always hard going back to work fab post Thanks for linking to the #binkylinky come back next week please

  4. September 26, 2016 / 8:58 am

    It was lovely to hang out with you at BlogFest yesterday!

    Awww! It’s so hard leaving them when they are under the weather. Wow! That is some commute!! Yikes! It makes for a very long day for you. Hang in there. Things will settle down soon! #Fortheloveofblog

    • The UnNatural Mother
      October 3, 2016 / 6:03 am

      Lovely to meet you too.I learnt a huge amount from you all. Im on week 3 back at work now and it’s not too bad but still missing the babies X

  5. September 29, 2016 / 12:30 pm

    It’s so hard on days like these, I remember them so well. Thing is they arent all days like these so keep your chin up and remember that it will get better. Thanks for joining us on #fortheloveofBLOG x

    • The UnNatural Mother
      October 3, 2016 / 5:53 am

      Im sure it will all get better and i will get into the swing of things. X

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